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January 16, 2013


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Journal Entry: Wed Jan 16, 2013, 11:33 PM

Okay ignore this late night tired Adrian thing I'm just moody and grumpy after my first day of school ok.
And feeling sick.
So yeah I complain a lot when I'm sick.

Have any of you guys just... Idk I've been having conflicting feelings about my art lately.
Like. I just feel like I'm not good.
No. I'm just horrible.
My style is unoriginal, anatomy skills not that great, and ugh.

I just don't know???

I feel like I won't upload things like any commissions or art trades until I feel comfortable with my art sorry I want to give you guys quality art, and I just can't do that right now....

It's just this weird thing with me.. I just really want to be good I guess??
Like. Be someone's inspiration.
Ha like that'll ever happen.
Like I see these artists that are in everyone's inspiration list thing.

I know I sound like a view whore right now but it's just.. Ugh I don't know sorry I should just eat some fried chicken and go to sleep.
It's just I think that would boost my confidence about my art style and yeah.

Another thing that kind of made me uncomfortable was that I get more comments and favorites on ID pictures I upload and not my art??? It just makes me feel like the majority of my watchers think I'm attractive and that's why they watch me, for my appearance on the outside, not my creativity or for my art, which is why I'm here on dA.
The only reason I upload my face is to update what I look like, like to go back through my gallery after a few years and see how much I have changed, along with my art.

Sorry guys I'm really thankful I have the watchers that I have, I really am. I've gained over 200 watchers in 4 months, so I guess that's pretty good compared to my other account I moved from, which I got 300+ after two years...

Yeah thanks everyone, sorry I'm being a poop right now. And sorry to the people I owe things to it's going to be a little while.
I should sleep ugh


ughby DatCrayonKid

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KillingKasper Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
sh bby. Your art is really original. I'm still bad at anatomy also, it just takes a while and some practice.
Take a break, practice some more, then come back when you're ready. You'll feel a lot better. <3 It's what I did. c:
animatedastronaut Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know that feel, bro. Going through something similar at the moment.
And truth be told, alls you have to do is draw. Don't go looking for a style, let it come to you. If you don't think about it, it will happen. I know, I'm learning to ignore it.
Just don't give up.
cat-fab Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013
adRIAN NO I never notice you uploading art because I just skim through my gallery messages. ;^; I will look more carefully. <3

Look, you can't always start out with knowing what male anatomy or female anatomy is, it takes time and practice. There are some artists out there who know they can do humans, anthro, feral, dragons, perfect shading, clothing, shoes, hands, etc. They don't deserve it because they use it to feed themselves with drama and fame. You are one of those artists who deserves to have that skill, but you need to earn it. Just keep practicing. You don't have to upload it if you think people won't like it, just look around at other artists and see who inspires you, I know =Creamex inspires me to want to try feral, but I can't. xD

If I could command all of your watchers (and probably more people) to give you favorites and do anything to make you happy, I really would. <3 You are considered a friend to me and I care about you very much. o//u//o
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